bitch and moan

I have to keep reminding myself that this isn't a space for me to bitch and moan. I have my self esteem issues, but what girl doesn't? Some may be worse than others, but I don't want this blog to be a place where all I get (or want to get) is sympathy. It's not my styyyyle. I need this blog to be positive. Not for anyone but my own sake. Even if that means there are countless amounts of fresh start or starting over posts.

Last night was my final night at Rocky. THANK GOD. It was so boring... but now I can finally have a set schedule. The only night I'm working late is Wednesdays, and I'll have gobs of time for school and the gym. I have it all planned out. Meals, school, work. It's gonna be awesome.

Also, this semester is going to be a cakewalk compared to last semester. I know this because I finished all of my readings before the school week ended. I could even get a head start on next week... Feels good :)

3 miles and a Macbook

I ran 3 miles today in 32 minutes and 26 seconds. I think that's pretty good. Little less than 11 minutes per mile.

The past few days I have been running around to Best Buy and the Apple Store trying to figure out what kind of battery my macbook takes. It doesn't charge anymore and if I take it off life support it instantly dies. The computer itself works great, and even the Apple Genius said it was just the battery. So, basically, I'm saying fuck it for these reasons:

1. Replacement cost through the Apple Store is $129 plus taxes.
2. Apple Genius refused to tell me what kind of battery was in my computer, and just told me to Google the model. 
3. Problem is there are still 12-thousand different kinds of batteries. And if I google, "Macbook Pro 15 inch mid 2010" the results I get are all over the place. 
4. The Amazon reviews are horrendous. The few batteries I did find had 10 1-star reviews to the 3 5-star reviews. 
5. The only source I trust to buy the battery online is out of stock ($40 for a used one) or really expensive ($159 for a new one). 
6. I never move or go anywhere with my computer. It's basically a desktop anyway.

So, if it ain't broken, don't fix it. I'm switching back to PC after this laptop anyway. 

Some people...

I'm happy I'm not sensitive about my nose scar. I like it, I embrace it, and honestly, I don't think I look like myself when people put make-up on it or edit it in photoshop. I hate my face without my nose scar. It's been there for 13 years this spring. It's part of me.

I wouldn't say I enjoy making people feel like assholes when they bring it up, but it's certainly getting easier to do. Twice within the last 3 hours random strangers have come up to the reference desk and asked, "Were you wearing glasses? Or is it always like that? Your nose." And I go, "Nope, been like that since 6th grade." Peter always says I should add, "...and I'm not sensitive about it or anything." Just to make the person feel like a dick.

Some guy today had the nerve of suggesting plastic surgery. To which I replied, "Oh, I already had it." This isn't a lie. The doctor who sewed me up the first time left a huge scar, a good 1/8 inch wide and 1 inch long. Something like that on the bridge of your nose is pretty significant. The second guy who sewed me up left practically nothing, it's just permanently red.

The moral of the story is: don't attract attention to things that are physically different on a person. Because if they aren't like me, and if they're sensitive about it, you could really end up making their day terrible. (I guess that's why I make them feel like a dick, so then maybe next time they won't make the same mistake.)

793.308664

The call number above is connected to the classification of "Gays -- Social Dancing." I'm so very tempted to go look on the shelf and see if we have anything labeled with this number. What kind of book could possibly be assigned this number? I'm thinking it could be books about drag shows... *edit* We have nothing with that call number. In fact, out entire dance section is pitiful. 1/2 a shelf. Why does dance get 1/2 a shelf when quilting gets 4? 

This library is epic.
I work at this library.
I am in love.
#librarynerd

OH BIG NEWS GUYS.
Warrenville Public Library has hired me. I'm going to be a technical services clerk part time for them. Which means... I GET TO LEAVE THE OUTLET MALL. Can you tell how excited I am?I really think I could be head of a technical services department one day. I think I'd excel at that... 2014: year of the Aimee. Tonight, we celebrate with sushi. Starting the 27th, my weeks will look like this:

Monday: WPL 11 am - 3 pm and TAP 5:30-6:30

Tuesday: WPL 11 am - 3 pm

Wednesday: WPL 11 am -3 pm and CSPL 5-9

Thursday: WPL 11 am - 3 pm

Friday: CSPL 8:45 am - 1 pm

2nd and 4th Saturdays: CSPL 8:45 am - 5 pm

That leave a lot of time in the evenings to focus on school and the gym. And since Peter works from 3 pm to 11:30 pm on weeknights, I won't have many distractions. Just Nutella and the dishes. Bad part is I'm basically never going to see Peter except on weekends. I originally told Warrenville I'd like to work 10 am to 2 pm, but I'm hoping to change it to the above schedule. Mainly because Peter and I could at least eat breakfast together. We enjoy each others company too much, it's a disease. 

Nancy is leaving for Reno on Tuesday. I'm going to miss her because I love her face. But she's off to have magical adventures in Nevada, and I'm really excited for her.

@ the library

Just a few quips and things I've noticed today at my library.

• Someone came in wanting BCD (books on CD) about Scientology and L. Ron Hubbard. He thinks it's a joke and dumb, but still wants to know more about it. Which I can respect. He also wanted BCD about art and artists. He then hands me 2 business cards of his. Turns out he is a director and trainer of CPR, he has first aid and lifeguard certification, he is an aquatic personal trainer AND he owns a contemporary art gallery in the city. He deals, trades, curates, and collects all sorts of art. How cool is that? And I am the one who takes care of him at the reference desk. Check out his stuff!
• Read in American Libraries the magazine that the puppeteer Toby Philpott, one of the men who puppeted Jabba the Hutt in Return of the Jedi now works as a librarian in Wales teaching computer courses. AWESOME.
• Also read in American Libraries that the first paperless library opened in Texas. It has over 10,000 downloadable titles, along with 600 e-readers one can borrow. There are also computer stations, digital literacy classes, and a coffee shop. I love this concept of a library. It breaks the mold, but I do think this is the way libraries are heading. I do not think more traditional libraries will completely disappear, but I do think more of these paperless libraries will be popping up around the country. It's a great service! 

#librarynerd

Picking heavy stuff up, then setting it down.

I did this thing once with Alise (an old friend from high school, but now, my boyfriends-step brothers-fiance, pfft practically family).

Goal size!

For the past 6-7 months I've been gauging my ears. It's been kinda controversial, but it's also something I've always wanted to do. And I've finally hit my goal size of 2 (unintentionally rhyming here). That's about 1/4 inch, so it's not insane. As far as gaping holes in my ears, this is minimal.

For Christmas, Peter got me a few pairs of plugs. Some wooden ones, some beautiful flowery ones, and some awesome blue and green eyelets. Shalyn had given me some cool owl plugs a while back, so now I have a few options once my ears heal. I can't wait to have a real collection going!

Nope. Noooope.

It's been a blah day. The weather has been ridiculous. Highs in the -10s, with wind chills in the -50s. Pumping gas this morning, it hurt to stand outside.

The past few days I've been really hard on myself, even though I've been eating well and exercising. It's not a state of mind I like being in. I feel like I made such great progress, then let it all slip away. Knowing I can (and will) get back to where I feel comfortable is motivation enough. It also helps that I have Peter. This is the most open and honest relationship I've ever been in. I'm so lucky.

WOW this entry was all over the place.

HOARDERS MARATHON. Let's make some quinoa.

Snow snow snow

It's been snowing since about 2 pm yesterday. On top of our already 6 inches of snow we had already. Schools, dance classes, programs, all closed for tomorrow, because it's supposed to be a high of -17. I hope the mall closes too.

I have something really important to do tomorrow as well. I hope it doesn't get cancelled or moved... Too bad I can't announce what it is yet. (Look at me, acting like my life is so important and everyone cares about my life. I'm a celebrity, obviously)

Tonight is the RMCF christmas party. Hey, it's free food, so can't complain.

1/2 Marathons... WHAT?

My dear friend Sheena sent out an email to her runner friends the other day. It was advertising the Chicago Women's Half Marathon and 5K. I tweeted her asking which she was interested in, the 1/2 of the 5K. I said I'd sign up for the 1/2 and train/run it with her. So... that's what we're doing!

I can't believe I'm doing this.......

13.1 miles, that's more than 2 10Ks, one right after another. What happened to the girl who loathed running the mile in high school? Nowadays, 1 mile is a cakewalk. I like running because it allows me to prove something to myself. It allows me to conquer something I once hated, and it makes me feel strong. I like myself when I'm running.

Anyway, I printed out a 24 week training schedule using the same design and layout from my 10K training program. I liked it, and it worked well for me. I must admit, it's a bit terrifying seeing my long run days. 11 miles, 12 miles, 13 miles. I'm petrified. But also excited. It begins March 17th with a 4 mile run. I have 3 months to get to the point where 3-4 miles is considered easy.

LET'S DO THIS.

2013 a year in review

2013 is over, and yet I still find myself trying to date things 2012.

Let's reflect.

January, I was engaged to be married, but miserable.
February, I ended my engagement. Things started to look up. I started seeing Peter, and my cousin Jenna has a beautiful baby boy, Isaac.
March, I ran a St. Patty's day 5K in Naperville.
April, I turned 24 years old, and though it may have seemed fast, I moved in with Peter.
May, Jacqui had the most precious little baby boy. My nephew Chevy Lee.
June, I said goodbye to Chubbs.
July, I got drunk on the 4th of July.
August, Carol Stream Public Library hired me. I ran the Elburn Days 5K. And travelled to Madison for grad school orientation.
September, I started at UW Madison. Gonna finish my masters in my PJs. And I ran my first 10K.
October, Best friend Lizzie got married, and is having a baby girl!
November, I got snapchat and went to my first body building show.
December, I ran the Go Santa Go 5K with John and Sheena downtown. Peter turned 26, and we went to Blue Man Group and spent too much money on fondue. Tanta Gerti turns 90.

Overall, my happiness level has increased 10-fold. I lost 10 pounds, and gained back 13. I lost some friends, gained new family, and rekindled old friendships.